I am of an age and physical condition that I have to constantly think about my lacking of a future, at least in this world. I am currently drafting my last will and testament, and putting my finances in order. I look forward to the freedom these completed duties will render unto me.
None of us can live in this world forever, though some of us will live forever in the next. Our transit from this world to the beyond depends upon our Conscience-whether it is clear and clean, or sullied and dubious-at the moment of our death.
We’re all of us sinners, imperfect in every way: the opposite of any Mary Poppins. None of us should be tempted to think we are any more than a sinner. St John agrees:
If we say, “We are without sin,” we deceive ourselves,* and the truth is not in us. If we acknowledge our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive our sins and cleanse us from every wrongdoing. If we say, “We have not sinned,” we make him a liar, and his word is not in us. (1John 1:8-10)
A funeral in Christ is a place where great sadness is turned to great Joy because Our Lady and all the Angels and Saints are whooping and hollering and interceding for the deceased, like there’s no tomorrow.
All it takes to die in Christ is to be sorry for one’s sins.
Swallow your stubborn pride and just do it.